jeff's response to below

my love,

thank you for this letter. it was nice to get a dose of positivity in my negative state. i know the trip wasn't a good idea but it is good remembering the positive parts. i did enjoy our walk alone together too and i love to be with you and zil whatever the circumstance. i'm so sorry for my family and the way they treat you. i know it's mainly my aunt but it's also just a collective feeling overall as well. like i said, they bring out the worst in people, not just us. on the way home yesterday, one of the main things that i couldn't get out of my head was just how bad i feel for letting this happen again. i just couldn't and still can't shake the feeling of being so purely stupid. their energy is just not healthy. i know it stresses us both out and it's obvious now that it even stresses out our little one as well. it's my job to protect our family and i promise you that i will do better in the future.

weekends like this last one remind me just how good the life that we've built together really is. we may not have the financial part of our life figured out yet but we have what's so much harder to attain. we have real love, real respect, and real trust and our family means more to me than anything else.

i'm sorry that i'm so closed at times and hard to deal with. i let too many things get to me when i sometimes just need to focus on the here and now. when i do that, everything is perfect. i have a beautiful, healthy, sweet, love of a wife and a beautiful, healthy, sweet, love of a daughter. we live in a beautiful environment and have plenty of healthy food, water, and warm sunshine over the sea that's right outside of our home. i'm also sorry that we've been so disconnected lately. again, i let so many things get to me that when i have beautiful you right next to me in our bed, the disconnect stays. i don't know what to say. it makes me so sad. i miss you like you miss me and we're right next to each other. all i have left i can say is that i will try to do better. i love you, miss you, and cherish you and our little girl more than anything else in the world. x